yes, I am having one of those. I think it's gone beyond month now tho. I don't even remember exactly what happened to catapult this statement. but it was pretty close to an, I hate my life kinda moment.
No, I don't try and think about the dreams I used to have of where my life would be. It kinda upsets me. There are parts of my life that I would have never expected to be as good as they are (I have friends and personal relationships that I couldn't fathom being as wonderful as they are) and there are other parts of my life I thought would be better.
When I was a dumb kid I used to dream of getting married and having kids (yes I was a kid and it was mostly prepubescent times) but my thoughts were all fantasy. The reason? I believe in reality and I know reality is far different then what I dream about in my head. And I still have those perfect kinda thought (mostly about being on the enterprise, and being with Data. Yes I am a sick fuck) As with most of the things I truly want in my life, they are all fantasy that will never be fulfilled.
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Date: 2005-06-01 07:04 pm (UTC)I have those moments... Sometimes it helps me to think about where I thought I'd be, and how I feel about those dreams now...
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Date: 2005-06-01 07:20 pm (UTC)No, I don't try and think about the dreams I used to have of where my life would be. It kinda upsets me. There are parts of my life that I would have never expected to be as good as they are (I have friends and personal relationships that I couldn't fathom being as wonderful as they are) and there are other parts of my life I thought would be better.
When I was a dumb kid I used to dream of getting married and having kids (yes I was a kid and it was mostly prepubescent times) but my thoughts were all fantasy. The reason? I believe in reality and I know reality is far different then what I dream about in my head. And I still have those perfect kinda thought (mostly about being on the enterprise, and being with Data. Yes I am a sick fuck) As with most of the things I truly want in my life, they are all fantasy that will never be fulfilled.